5:52 p.m. - 2004-11-03
November 3rd, 2004
Our statistics class was greeted to a surprise. We have all new chairs. They lean back. Now I can work my abs and learn statistics at the same time.
excerpt from a conversation with an old friend:
aysha says:
return
aysha says:
my brother kicked me out of the room i am in
Jean le Maniac de Homicide says:
ok, why?
aysha says:
because he was going to bed
Jean le Maniac de Homicide says:
ok
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig says:
so which room are you in now?
aysha says:
oh i came upstairs
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
.oO(attempting to learn Deutsch)
aysha says:
oh sounds fun!
aysha says:
i am not that guarded anyways
aysha says:
aysha says:
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
it seems that way
aysha says:
not true
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
i recall you and i having a conversation about you having layers like an onion, years before shrek ever came out
aysha says:
haha
aysha says:
yeah but .. i think i might be worse now
aysha says:
the onion is closed
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
*takes the onion and places it in a Wendy's onion slicer*
aysha says:
awww bless
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
don't make me use this
aysha says:
oh well
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
if only it were that easy, huh?
aysha says:
its pretty easy to understand me anyways
aysha says:
nobody ever realy tries
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
my head is kinda messed up right now (more so than usual) because of what my english composition I (honors) teacher was talking about yesterday
aysha says:
whats that?
aysha says:
http://www.guardian.co.uk/cartoons/0,7371,337484,00.html
aysha says:
honours english teachers are weird
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
she was using aliens as an example on how to write a research paper, (our class is about semiotics, signs, of pop culture)
aysha says:
i see
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
well in her discussion she mentioned how aliens have been percieved as either benevolent or malicious in different times
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
she alluded to aliens being angels and demons... it makes too much sense
aysha says:
maybe
aysha says:
but that takes the fun out of it
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
well, strike that and reverse it... what has historically been referred to as angels or demons are really just aliens
aysha says:
maybe but it still takes the fun out of it
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
howso?
aysha says:
because we have a desire to know that something exists out there and if you dont believe in God then you dont believe in heaven and hell so you dont believe in angles and demons so you need aliens
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
what if it's all the same though?
aysha says:
yeah but humans are stupid they need the decption that one is not the same as the other
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
ok, but between us?
aysha says:
between us? what?
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
i wouldn't call you stupid... can you see the way all the different cultures religions make more sense if it is aliens instead of gods, angels, or demons?
aysha says:
maybe but .. in Islam it teaches you to believe that you should never fail to think we are alone in this universe
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
an episode of futurama showed a world that was like ancient egypt, there were people there that had the heads of animals
aysha says:
i think i saw that
aysha says:
my sister is complaining about Bush
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
Vote for Arnold in 2008!
aysha says:
but what if there are angles demons and aliens?
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
i'm not sure there's room for all of that
aysha says:
why not
aysha says:
if the galaxy is infinatly large
aysha says:
have you read the Philp Pullman books?
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
well, the universe anyways, but angels and demons are more than likely other races of aliens
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
nope
aysha says:
you should its good
aysha says:
http://www.randomhouse.com/features/pullman/philippullman/
aysha says:
his book have been ban by many churches for being to antichristian
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
so have the harry potter books
aysha says:
yeah but pullman hates the potter woman and his books are based on dantes inferno
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
cool
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
Philip Pullman believes firmly in the virtues of healthy exercise and a moderate diet - for other people.
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
that paragraph is great
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
makes me think of piers anthony
aysha says:
he is agood author if you have time to read
aysha says:
oh robert holdstock is fan bloody tastic
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
back to potter for a moment... in england are children scolded for saying bloody?
aysha says:
depends on their family
aysha says:
but its a swear word so ..
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
well it was on the third potter film... i saw it on the transatlantic flight
aysha says:
if my little brother said it he'd be in trouble
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
same thing with bollocks?
aysha says:
yeah but its like saying shit
aysha says:
yep
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
pissing the night away is getting drunk
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
to smack my bitch up is to party hard?
aysha says:
pissing the night away is drinking awya the night
aysha says:
i think thats american slang
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
prodigy brought it to us, not from us
aysha says:
are you sure
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
fairly
aysha says:
i hate fur on things
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
otherwise mtv wouldn't have freaked out like it did, only airing the video one time late at night with a huge warning preceding it
aysha says:
hmm
aysha says:
mtv is pathetic
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
i want to genetically engineer a snake with fur... it'd look like a severed cat's tail
aysha says:
thats nasty
aysha says:
i dont like snakes after a sidewinder almost fell out of a tree at me
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
well, i have a cat, sparky, who lost his tail from biting the cords on the xmas lights... so if i had a small furry snake when someone asked where the cat's tail was i could hand the snake to them
aysha says:
i suppose so
aysha says:
i liek corduroy
aysha says:
i cant spell but i know what i like
aysha says:
this has nothing to do with anything just being annoying i dont speak to people often
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
hmmm... an hour till i could go beat people with foam swords
aysha says:
exciting!
aysha says:
sounds sad but whatever floats your goat
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
my goat? is that a Balky Bartakamoose saying?
aysha says:
no i just made it up i had an image of a floating goat and it loked amusing in my mind
aysha says:
saying being "whatever floats your boat"
aysha says:
converted boat to goat in my mind visualized it looked funny so i said it
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
ok, he said things like that because he didn't quite understand american idioms...a girl in the reserves said kicking butt and writing down names
aysha says:
i see
aysha says:
i am tiered
aysha says:
did you gain anything of use from this conversation .. did it make you feel less alone in the world?
aysha says:
oh by the way i didn't have your email address before the other day
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
possibly, you?
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
that's hard to believe since i haven't changed it in years
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
one of my yahoo accounts died (the old rocketmail one)
aysha says:
i seriously dont have it anywhere and how am i to know if you have or havent changed stopped using an email adress since i havent emailed you in an age
aysha says:
mines alive
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
send me a test email like i did to you? i sent emails to a couple of different emails of yours
aysha says:
yeah .. i try to be unreachable i guess i failed
aysha says:
besides it never occured to me to email you
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
.oO(see i knew i was repulsive)
aysha says:
ha
aysha says:
If you think so *shrug
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
what do you think of me?
aysha says:
why ?
aysha says:
can I opt not to answer?
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
because i'd like to know
aysha says:
how will knowing help you/
aysha says:
besides what I think doesnt matter.
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
i am not entirely sure, but i've been trying to fix myself, it's just hard to know what is wrong with me without a proper mirror
aysha says:
i would hardly be able to mirror you enough to help
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
it's like using more than one mirror to see behind one's self... i need all the help i can get
aysha says:
hmm I don't think i can help .. because I don't recall faults .. I can't say your repulsive .. because I don;t agree with that
aysha says:
perhaps your too radical but your actually not .. so .. i dont know
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
that's exactly why i need to hear what you think
aysha says:
why?
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
did i ever have you listen to the henry rollins song, "i know you"?
aysha says:
because i have known you almost 8 years in a very weird way??
aysha says:
indeed no you did not
aysha says:
i like oxymorons your sort of one yourself
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
those 8 years count for a lot
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
am i?
aysha says:
do they/
aysha says:
yeah you are
aysha says:
your almost completly what you seem .. which is frustrating because your actually completely the opposite of that i suppose
aysha says:
you do things that counter what you really are like joining the army .. you confrom without conforming at all
aysha says:
and i am never sure how serious you take life
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
i conform without conforming at all?
aysha says:
yes
aysha says:
you joined the army even though you seemed like a non conformist
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
did i still seem that way after i joined? do i still seem that way?
aysha says:
what like a nonconformist
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
yeah
aysha says:
well after you joined you become a conformist who didnt really want to conform
aysha says:
now you seem relieved
aysha says:
but i dont know enough to know which one you are
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
well army propaganda, despite my efforts, still managed to mess me up
aysha says:
that was your decision
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
i know that
aysha says:
i dunno i cant help only you can know how to change who you are
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
i know that too, i just need the help in seeing how i come across to others
aysha says:
i cant really exactly tell you how you come across to me
aysha says:
you repulse me but you dont
aysha says:
i feel drawn
aysha says:
but i dont want to be
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
.oO(there hasn't been a day of college that i haven't worn all black [except urban camoflage pants])
aysha says:
hmm
aysha says:
you cant hide in the croud in black
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
today that girl, michelle, came to class late so i caught her up on the notes. then she offered to give me her statistics notes and sociology notes... despite that i was wearing all black, my trench coat, and i had horns affixed to my forehead with spirit gum
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
i don't want to hide, i want to stand out
aysha says:
i just wanted to blend when i was at uni
aysha says:
hide but thats how i am anyways
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
besides "black is a social color" i.e. black tie events
aysha says:
its easier to watch when you blend
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
it's easier to watch how people truly are when their gawking
aysha says:
yeah but i dont like people interfering in my life
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
not that many people even talk to me so there isn't any real interference there
aysha says:
i dont know sweety ..
aysha says:
do what you must
aysha says:
( i am not sure what i mean i just felt like saying it)
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
before we left germany, a guy i thought i was on decent terms with called me a "contrarian" in regards to my pentagram (he was drunk off of alcoholic candy at the time since we are not longer allowed to drink in the reserves while on "duty")
aysha says:
i see
Johnny Der Moerderisch Wahnsinnig or Johnny Der Verrueckter Psychopath says:
aysha, it has been nice talking with you. I have to go. Nick called needing a ride to Theresa's house.
aysha says:
me to
aysha says:
i need to sleep
aysha says:
ramadan and all i need a drink before sunrise
aysha says:
fare well
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